I have always been unhappy with the number on the scale. Always.
I can honestly remember being 11 and being disappointed with myself. Also, I can not recall a time where I didn’t eat emotionally. Good days were celebrated with high calorie yummies. Bad days were capped off with a greasy bowl of ‘feelings’.
I would go through healthy phases where I would hit the gym regularly and eat cleaner, only to see the scale move down and immediately reward myself with a junk food binge. Just once is usually all it took to derail myself and I would soon find me back to where I started. I graduated college with about 20 extra pounds, I met my husband and 5 years, 3 beautiful babies and 50 extra pounds later, I hated myself for getting this overweight. Cap that with a husband who worked out of town and keeping 3 children alive I was emotionally and physically beat. Eating feelings became a daily event.
Last January I was desperate. I bought a treadmill on sale and vowed that I would get my act together. My days were so long that exercising after the kids were in bed was not an option. Instead, I would set my kids up with a movie and toys but I still couldn’t get more than 10 minutes in without one of them needing my attention. This of course stressed me out causing the consumption of more feelings.
I had met Kelly and Marriann thru social media and thought highly of them both. They seemed like such happy and positive women that always had something wonderful to share. One day I clicked on Kelly’s profile link and found the Goodbye My Muffintop Inc. website.
I had heard of hCG before and honestly, at the time all I cared about is the part where you release weight fast. When I sat down with Kelly, she talked about how herself and others were able to free themselves from the cycle of emotional eating and dieting. This was the first time I realized how bad my emotional eating was.
Because I was still nursing my baby, I had to wait a couple months to start protocol. I paid attention to what and when I ate and couldn’t believe how often I ate out of habit/emotion and not hunger.
In May of 2013 I started my first round of protocol. I knew it would be rough. I had 2 of my kid’s birthdays as well as a huge long distance move to power thru while I was on protocol, meaning that I would not be able to have any birthday cake or reach for that bag of chips to calm my nerves.
Even though I was told what to expect I was absolutely floored to see I’d released 13 pounds in the first week of protocol. At the end of the first round I was down 30lbs and I’d successfully relocated to another town without even eating one crumb of feelings. To me, that gave me just as much satisfaction as the weight I had released.
During my second round, I found I had so much extra energy I had to do something to burn it off. My husband suggested I go for a run. I laughed at him. I used to have “only running while being chased” policy, but to my surprise, I loved it, and I have now adopted running as a hobby.
My other surprise this round was celebrating my 30th birthday without food, and not being remotely sad about it. I really didn’t miss it. Instead I took a garbage bag of clothing that were too big for me to goodwill and bought myself my very first pair of skinny jeans. And honestly, the way that made me feel beat the way a big chunk of cake would of made me feel.
That feeling is the reason I wanted to become a release coach. I feel so strongly about this program and I think everybody has the right to feel this way about themselves. I’m really looking forward to walking beautiful people through this journey of releasing pounds and the discovery of self love that comes with it.
My journey isn’t over yet but after 2 rounds of protocol, I have released 50 lbs and 60 inches (including 10 inches around my abdomen!!) but more importantly gained a huge amount of confidence and self love and I no longer see physical activity and clean eating as a punishment for letting myself get fat, instead I truly enjoy it and I see it as a reward.
I’ve never been so happy to be me and CANNOT wait to share more of this journey with others!