Category Archives: Not A Practice Life
My cell phone rang a couple weeks ago. Just a simple glance at the odd-ball number and “Washington” on the call display SHOUTED “put it the hell down and don’t answer it – they want to sell you another free cruise!” My gut told me to answer it, so I did “Hello?”. On the other end of the line I hear this strong masculine voice say “This is the President of The Marriann Hammond Fan Club in Snohomish, Washington”. I literally, LOL!! Haaalarious!! I just knew it was Brad Simkins, because I know he reads, comments on, and shares my blog posts. Plus, he is the only person I know of that lives in Washington. It’s not a coincidence that Brad and I were brought into the same circle a couple of months ago. It’s a blessing, I say. I don’t know that I would have ever come across him or his blog “Inner Guide Empowerment“, any other way. The inspirational posts on his Facebook page, always seem to speak to me in the right way, at the right moment. I embrace all he has to say, always.
Brad called me to tell me how much he really enjoys my posts – and how he often shares them with clients of his. He was encouraging and supportive. He said the most beautiful things about me, without ever having actually met me. Weird, hey? LOL!! Brad somehow knew that one of my biggest weaknesses is always my concern of “what will people think?”. I don’t know how he knew this – perhaps it comes across in my writing? He pointed out that it takes a great deal of bravery and vulnerability to write a public blog and share it with strangers. Let me tell you, that fear and vulnerability goes to an entire new level when you share it with friends and family. It touched my heart to hear him say all these wonderful things. The thought that he took time out of his day to track down my phone number, call me, thank me and encourage me – touched me to the core.
There have been many times over the course of the last year when I thought of quitting my blog, quitting my business – just quitting and existing. Fear and self-doubt overpowers my mind. Many times I stop and question my ability to inspire others. Who do I think I am? I’m just another face in the crowd (I think that’s a song? LOL if it’s not, it should be!) Brad lifted me up in a 15 minute phone call. The funny thing is, as soon as I hung up the phone I was overcome with a rush of saddness (which is bringing tears to my eyes AGAIN, right now…UGH!!!). This feeling brings me to my knees every once in a while – and I have a little pity party. Are you thinking “Cut the crap already! What were you thinking?”? Okay, this is what I thought “Why can’t the people I love so dearly, the people who are supposed to love me unconditionally, EVER lift me up and say anything nice like that?” Most of my negative thoughts and feelings usually always come back to this same conversation with myself, about the same people. These thoughts in my head were stealing “my moment”. My moment of praise and celebration. My moment to feel that maybe “someone actually thinks I am AWESOME?” I emailed Brad the next day and told him what happened. This was his response:
What you are feeling is completely understandable. I would like to offer a different view of this. I would suggest that this indicates further evidence on how far you have grown, and how awesome you are!!! It is easy, when we grow up in a home that teaches us since early childhood how awesome we are, and models for us positive approaches in life.
Yet, Marriann came from a family that was negative, critical and lacking in support… and she not only survived, but she thrived!!! She rose from that negativity and is a positive light in the world, encouraging others, and giving generously what she never received from her family. I would suggest that this is not something to be sad about, but proud of and validation of how powerful you are.
I realized many years ago, that I would never get from my bio family what I needed. So, I made the choice to create a ‘family-of-the-heart,” I have a few dads, several moms, and dozens of brothers and sisters. They provide the support, love, belief in me, etc that I always craved growing up, and never received. This has grown and evolved, and now I am the father-of-the-heart to over 150 kids. I now provide for them, the same love, kindness and support that my parents-of-the-heart gave me many years ago.
The first step is recognizing and accepting that this is not about you Marriann. These people do not withhold appreciation, because you are lacking. Far from it!!! Their behavior is a reflection of their inadequacies, not yours.
I would strongly encourage you to not hold yourself in. Let your beautiful light shine Marriann!!! For that is where we experience the most pain, when we force ourselves to be less than we are. Also, when we hold our light in, we send out an energy vibration, that attracts people who like to be critical and abusive. They pick up on this, and the cycle continues. Instead, I would invite you to embrace the beautiful words of another Marriann. Her name is Marianne Williamson. And she once shared in one of her books:
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Let you beautiful light shine Marriann, and continue to be the inspiration and example for others… so they too will let their light shine!!!
If Brad’s message resonates with you, you can start following him here:
I am now in love with Marianne Williamson (plus we have the same name so she has to be AWESOME!) Here is her website http://www.marianne.com/
You only get one chance at life and one body to live it.
You may be struggling with an ailment, chronic pain and discomfort or mental illness. Recognize and acknowledge that your “temple” isn’t as it should, or could be. There are people out there very passionate about what they do and are more than willing to help you. Don’t give up when the first one you see tells you there is nothing wrong. Only you know your body. Carry forward.
I saw the same chiropractor for 11 years. He did the same treatment at each visit. Many times the pain and discomfort of my back, hip and shoulder pain brought tears to my eyes. Often, I could tolerate the pain, it was the fear and frustration that brought the tears. I felt I was too young to have such chronic pain and be so limited with what I could do. I tried physiotherapy and massage therapy. Neither helped.
I was referred to a local chiropractor by a family member that went to school with him. Within two weeks of treatment, there was an extreme difference in my mobility and pain levels. His assessment was thorough and he often treated different areas of my body with every visit. He used Graston Technique on my upper back, hips and butt. It hurt like a bugger. I had no idea I had years of scar tissue built up, which was causing the chronic pain. I felt free of the pain that held me hostage. Losing 30+ pounds shortly thereafter made an even bigger difference. According to the Johns Hopkins Arthritis Center, carrying just 10 pounds of extra weight adds an extra 30 to 60 pounds of force on your knee with each step.
What are you waiting for? Start taking care of yourself. You will be so glad you did.
Since becoming actively connected with local business rockstars and engaging on Social Media Networks, such as Twitter…I stumbled upon a blog by Sheena Johnson. She is part-owner of The Bra Lounge in Red Deer, and by far one of the sweetest women I have ever met! Anyway, you can read about Motherless Daughters of Central Alberta, and perhaps follow her.
As some of my follower’s may know, I was adopted. On April 17, 2009 I was connected with my birth-mother, thanks to Facebook. At the end of March, as the anniversary of this date approached, I was feeling sad. I was feeling “mother-less”. I wrote this for Motherless Daughters. You can click on the link to finish reading…
“I was adopted. Growing up, I never heard the word adopted in my house. I didn’t even know what adopted meant, never-mind knowing that I was an adopted child. I found out I was adopted one morning on the school bus. Another kid told me. Apparently everyone else in my small town community knew, except me. It is fresh in my 31 year old mind, just like it was yesterday. It was spring. I can hear the early morning chattering of the children. To the East, the sunrise is freshly peeking over the Alberta prairie. I’m in the third seat behind the bus driver. I’m nestled up against the window. I’m tracing trees with my finger on the window, in the morning dew. A girl, a few years older than me leans over the back of my seat and tells me “You were adopted.” Do I tell her “I have no idea what that means”? I can’t tell her that. I’m too quiet, and shy and I feel like people already think I’m stupid. I don’t have to tell her I don’t understand. She goes on. “When you were a baby, your mom didn’t want you, so she put you up for adoption”. That’s all I remember…..click here to continue
While having a visit with some new friends a few days ago, one of them, a local personal trainer told me about one of her clients. A woman who literally has spent over $100,000 over the years trying various weight loss programs, exercise equipment, gym memberships, personal trainers, and on and on.
People like options, and there is no shortage of options when it comes to weight loss plans. Every day another one pops up. In my opinion, they all work. If they didn’t work, they wouldn’t be marketable and people wouldn’t spend the money to try them. When trying something new, we want it to be “THE ONE”. We want it to be the one plan that finally breaks us free of our unhealthy fat, makes us feel good again, and gets us out of our rut. But not only that, we don’t ever want to have to do it again. Why should a person ever have to spend money two, three, four times trying to lose something that unfortunately, they found again? What is a person to consider when trying, yet another, weight loss attempt? The biggest question you have to ask yourself is this…
Is this program something I can do every day for the rest of my life?
If you are overweight to any degree, you have to first be able to recognize the eating habits that got you to where you are, clearly aren’t working for your body. You have to recognize when choosing and starting a weight release program, if you want to maintain your weight forever, you can’t go back to those past eating habits. You need to have some serious revelations about what your putting into your body. I have always lost weight with the intention of long-term success – but failed in the research department. For example, I can’t drink a green smoothy every day for the rest of my life. Maybe some people can, I can not. I can’t sweat my ass off at the gym for an hour every day for the rest of my life. A few times a week, sure – not every day.
The moral of my story, don’t waste your time and money and buy into any weight-release or exercise program without first researching it. Most importantly, don’t forget to ask yourself this “Is this regime something I can do every day for the rest of my life?”. Don’t patch up your weight problem. Fix it for life.